part of december joy

the RANDOM thoughts and again

i want to be awesome, awesome.

is it that hard. when you need to say and wallla u got to be awesome.

hey, its not easy.

get back to real life please?

whats up with me? 

i think its because, (please stop thinking once in a while ey?)

when people questioning my way. my own way dealing with me life.

its not that im always think im right. people cant question me at all. no its not that.

people just have to get it that i have my own way to achieve things in life. they cant question me on how i would do it until i reach the ending. can you just please be happy with me at the end of the tunnel?

i do include certain people in the journey. we collide and must move in parallel way, perpendicular collision just met at an intersection, once. i don't want that.

*terasa perlu jalan bongkok perlahan lahan sambil nangis jalan perlahan lahan menuju ke bucu dinding bilik and stay there, until my love come and hug me tightly, says that everything will be alright without knowing what is that everything*

the 100th post : my+love+joy

L.O.V.E. + J.O.Y

day four : two smileys that describe your life right now

<^_^ > < ^_^>

day three : a photo of a place that you like to eat.

its here.

need i say more? with my obsession? i miss you jcool :D

lovelyCOUSINSaidiladhacelebration

*lovely*

MISI LAIN.

misi 30 hari nampaknya terkubur sebentar.
ada misi 30 hari yang lain.
iaitu menyediakan lukisan untuk submit D.O.
timeline nya 30 hari juga.
ok. bye.

eh hye, bye :D

day two: a photo of something you ate today.

i didnt not have time and discipline to update on time. boo!

the image explain them self. 

day one : a photo of yourself and a description of how your day was?

received this photo today  from a dear friend who we had dinner with last sunday ;)

its from her camera phone.

i purposely captured this right after she held me her phone to took her picture.

hee hee hee

being chicky, as always.

im so in love.

with this picture also. there's a smile that i hardly remember how to do it sometimes.

thank you, love.

and yeah, description of how was my day?

do you want to know the ending first?

my day starts early at home having breakfast alone.

peace.

then head to the office.

been busy handling drawings and calls.

suddenly its the evening already.

went to the clinic with bf, he is been sick since sunday :(

force him to eat something since he is not been eating since morning.

then back to the office.

here i am.

while waiting for printing.

my body, is tired. but heart and mind are free and happy eventho with tonnes of work.

alhamdulillah, im blessed.

may we all be bless, friends ;)

the MISSION after a long hiatus ;P

got this thing from SHAHIRA and it tempted me do it also because i almost forget that i have a blog? 

hee hee hee

pagi JUMAAT

SALAM
dengan harapan hari ini, semua nya dapat memulakan hari dengan indah.

its been a long silence since last i wrote.
konflik diri, mungkin.

i miss writing
as much as i miss my other half,
as much as i miss family time,
as much as i miss my best friend,
as much as i miss me time,
as much as i miss the blue sky,
as much as i miss the beach,
as much as i miss my memories...

missing means love. as simple as that, is it?
love it or some one, then you going to miss them.
its a beautiful feeling though.

terfikir semasa perjalanan ke pejabat dalam ten minutes ago,
apa yang aku minum setiap pagi akan menentukan mood aku sepanjang hari.
serious berbeza.
ini experiment kepada diri sendiri je la.

pagi minum kopi hitam : jadi hyper, ptg jadi grumpy and anxious
pagi minum pearl kacip fatimah : paginya bersemangat buat kerja pun laju je, bila petang, badan mula lemah
pagi minum milo panas : perut  sedap sepanjang hari, u noe what i mean
pagi jumaat ni, try minum cold chocholate milk pula, we will see later ;)

bagaimana dengan perkermbangan kerja anda cik? (soalan pada diri sendiri)

makin sibuk menguruskan 3 projek yang berjalan secara seiringan.
perlu pandai mengimbangkan masa dan emosi untuk bekerja.
its a bit hard for me to control my emotions la.
im too involve with my own feelings. ayin needs to learn more.
my learning process is widely ranging day by day.
alhamdulillah, this is the way He shows me to do, ill do my very best.
if not, long ago, He will not gave me this path to be choosen.
Alhamdulillah.


No matter how tired you are, if you love your job or what you are doing, later on, you'll be rewarded, in such a way that even you cant imagine. Insyaallah.


happy feelings everyone!

p/s
* share your happiness with me everyday ait?. ill share every second of it syg *
really made my day. thank you dear.

kambing la golek~

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till later yo! ;P

the GRADUATE ARCHITECT and everything in between.

Today i am going to talk about me life as an graduate architect.

its not as glamorous as people would think we might be.

its a journey to more glory days.

a journey where i might fall, fall and fall again, but going up and high to the sky.

there's no need to count days where i might be doing something else other than work. i enjoyed it till the last moment. the pressure is superb. yeah, really. 

tomorrow we will start revising on what we are going through for the whole next year and year after to prepare ourselves for the part 3 exam. some people might say, its to soon. but when is not too soon? its the journey people. journey : joy is a part of JOurneY. ;D

lebih kurang macam itulah impian.

apa yang aku nak merepek ya hari ni?

dah lama x menulis sebenarnya. lebih menghayati kehidupan realiti yang semakin indah pada hari mendatang.

wah. serious indah perasaan sekarang, if only i could share it with everyone, i will.

random.

pagi tadi semasa perjalanan ke pejabat, elok elok pasang cd lagu nasihat...everyone pun tahu die sedang naik sekarang, malas nak mention kat sini. sejujurnya, selepas hampir beratus kali mendengar lagu yang sama, aku tersentuh perasaan, rindu pada yang SATU. jarang sekali hadir perasaan begini, aku RINDU untuk merasa tenang selepas aku sujud padaMU. aku RINDU kenikmatan aku bersabar dan kurang beremosi pada tika itu. 

YA ALLAH. indahnya perasaan yang engkau berikan padaku. aku bersyukur. alhamdulillah.

random saturday.

macam dalam drama. theres a bitch, tears, and the aftermath. LOL. 

malas nak cakap banyak pasal ni, aku redha je, sebab memang banyak orang yang tak ada life sendiri, then nak menyibuk hal orang lain. contohnya life aku. best sangat kan sampai kau tak de kerja lain nak mengata aku je kan? alhamdulillah. im blessed. why dont you try and find bless? you might be happy too. aku doakan kau bahagia dan jumpa kedamaian dalam hati kau, aku ikhlas ni. :) semua orang berhak untuk merasa gembira , cuma perlu pandai mencari jalan yang betul untuk memilih kebahagiaan masing masing yang telah tertulis. its a fair world. percayalah.

haish. haish.

apa lah yang dibebelkan ni kan?

mana pix segala benda happy yang berlaku? *dalam laptop kat rumah*

mungkin dah lupa dah simpan dalam folder apa. LOL.

random *en hafiz ^_^*

selalu dipesan oleh yang disayang dan menyayangi, en hafiz.

jangan makan banyak benda masam. sebab nanti selalu lupa.

perkara yang paling selalu lupa ialah, letak kunci kereta kat mana.

nasib baik tak lupa rumah kat mana. hehehe.

tapi kalau macam 51st date tu kan comel, hari hari nak kena remind, pastu saya akan jadi blur ;P

tapi kan en hafiz, macam mana nak buat, suka sangat saya ni makan benda masam.

ada saying yang cakap, makan benda masam nanti bila dah kawen, pregnant senang dapat anak boy. hoh. i like. hahah! *ayat penyedap hati nak sangat makan benda masam*

*selingan*

berseorangan di office ni, macam macam bunyik la pulak*

en hafiz ialah punca penyebab kehidupan saya semakin indah dan penuh dengan aktiviti yang mengembirakan hati dan minda. alhamdulillah.

random *perasaan selepas convocation*

as i said before, the joy is in the journey people!

the whole think and thin 5 years of studying architecture and the whole 5 month waiting for graduation day is greater than the day of the convocation itself.

ya, i get to see friends and took colorful pictures, but deep down inside my heart, there's a box where all the memories should be kept and i have to move on with my life towards a betterment.

yang lama jangan dikenang. simpan jauh jauh dalam hati. DEEP.

sebak juga bila menyanyikan lagu UTM buat kali kedua dan terakhir.

the very moment that i enjoyed is when all the bubbles and balloons like literally fall from the sky :D

THINGS TO BE SETTLE BEFORE END OF OCTOBER.

pergi pejabat cidb. marah dorang sebab asyik salah eja nama.

pergi tanya soalan soalan di kaunter PTPTN.

pergi bayar saman POLIS kat jalan bandar, kot.

pergi hantar borang registration LAM.

semuanya melibatkan pergi dan duit, no wonder, aku macam malas nak fikir semua ni. HAHAHAH!

live a blessed life people! ;)

THE CONVO WEEKEND

MAJLIS KONVOKESYEN KE-45 UTM

ON OUR WAY TO GET JCOOL

to be continue, when im somewhere with a great internet connection. ;P

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tbc

and btw, hye new follower ;D

NURUL AZRIN SAHARUDIN - CONVOCATION

my convocation is just around the corner..er...this coming sunday.
everyone is going to be there.
mama abah along anwar azrul dihar atok tokmak makuda.
graduating on time is the biggest birthday present for mama big 50 celebration this year.
abah also have got a new shirt for my convocation.
they are really happy. i can tell. thank you, you both.
tak lupa juga pada adik beradik yang banyak tolerate. er. THANK YOU. ;D

gosh. meriah! ;D
its friday, the rehearsal, but here i am still at the office, choosing to have a leave on monday.
maybe to go and visit my old employer and teachers at school..pay some bills, maybe.

im excited for the convocation, since the last five years has been sweet and rough.
but, there is the sad part of it, i didnt get to graduate with my one and only bestest friend ever, liza, who is still surviving though her final year...go girl, i know you can do it ;D

another thing yang terkilan sedikit, is my other half cant join us at skudai. :/
but we did celebrate last nyte, a simple and sweet one.
cause you memang sweet selalu macam tu kan sayang... ^_^
alhamdulillah you muncul dan sudi jadi no 1 and only dalam hati i kan? :)
im so happy and content.
lets pray it would last... ;)
surely i will be missing you sayang this weekend.....

will update with gorgeous photo once i got back from skudai. :)
ai ait people, later!

the detox, detox hati.

salam. its been quite a long pause since last i wrote here.

i am at the office, and today is already 7th of syawal. yes. i am at the office. not complaining or anything, at least my time is filled with un-emotional thingy.

starting writing this at 1530 hour, i'll click the publish button when im done waiting the copy-cut-paste of this 3d ya?

what am i doing? , where am i during the absence nearly a month?

er....sudah tiada hati hendak menulis di sini, hati telah dicuri. tengoklah ni dulu. nanti baru ceritalah. bye.

:D

publish time : 2243, im not done with my 3d yet.

s e b a r a n g a n

hola.
banyak gangguan minda.
sampai  rasa, persetankan aja semuanya.
terlalu terusik emosi tatkala terdetik di fikiran.
tentang apa? segalanya~
menjadi makin kusut, tanpa arah.
mungkin dulu, ada tujuan, tujuan terserong kini.
tersasar. tak on track. tak selesa, tapi selesa. macam tu.
pening. malas. mungkin? ouh. tak. sebenarnya. tak puas.
bersyukur lah.
banyakkan bersyukur.
count your blessings, every minute of it.
aku kusut. mungkin.
aku malas ke? mungkin.
atau mungkin aku keliru.
aku sendiri sudah tidak pasti dengan kemahuan sendiri.
perlu ke kemahuan bukan kah keperluan?
bagaimana dengan kemampuan.
terlalu banyak persoalaan. aaaah.
malas nak pikir.
there. malas.
emotional la.
makin fikir, makin keliru. duh.


lama sudah tidak mengenangkan kembali apa yang telah aku lakukan berminggu minggu. kenangan kenangan indah yang sepatutnya aku catatkan supaya aku boleh tersenyum nanti bila teringatkan nya.
terlalu banyak anasir yang mengganggu minda, membuatkan aku rasa aku kurang fokus. kurang fokus dalam segalanya. buat kerja di pejabat, kadang kadang blur..memandu dengan perasaan melayang layang, seolah olah, tangan kaki dan otak tidak berkoordinasi. pernah tak orang lain rasa macam tu?

bila terlalu banyak pilihan, kita jadi memilih. cuba kalau memang tiada pilihan langsung, you just have to make the best of it la. sampai bila nak hidup tak happy ya dak?

gangguan emosi. kurang kawalan kadang kadang. biarlah tercurah. peduli apa aku. itu kadang kadang fikir macam tu. sampai bila nak jaga hati orang, siapa nak jaga hati kita? dah terbukti dalam kajian, wanita banyak over protected terhadap diri sendiri, sebab die sendiri tahu die lemah. tapi orang yang ambil kesempatan terhadap orang yang lemah emosi, satu perkataan je, dayus.

aku boleh terjadi emosi sangat, melihat keadaan di sekeliling, biar sesetengah orang buat perangai macam shit. aku terusik sangat, walaupun bukan aku yang kau usik. they just dont deserve to be treated like that.

tentang hal lain pula. aku jadi emosi jugak. bila aku penat, kau datang, memberi masalah meminta petunjuk. aku hanya nak kau faham, aku penat. susah ke nak faham. i do have my own life jugak. dont be selfish. kadang kadang aku nak rasa aku pandai gak. walaupun kau selalu pandang rendah kat aku. ada aku kisah.

api main dengan api. makin membara la ok. sakit sebenarnya kalau terbakar. tapi nak jugak main, sebab bila kita dah tau die apai, kita akan tau sakitnya macam mana bila terbakar. instead of kita ingat die air atau angin. macam tu la. pening kan nak faham apa yang aku fikirkan?

kadang kadang aku rasa nak shut down otak sekejap, time aku tidur ke? boleh ke macam tu. sebab kadang kadang rasa penat terlalu banyak berfikir. aku tak reti nak relax. macam mana tu?

dah la. bosan pulak membebel. till next time.

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perasaan random.

i promise myself to be happy and neutral after this.
promise to myself.

positive positive positive mode. pujuk diri sendiri. as always.
only one who are in my shoes can really feel how i feel right now.

my first few days in RAMADHAN

SALAM.
sekejap je, dah tiga hari berpuasa.

tapi, apakan daya...niat di hati hendak menunaikan tarawikh banyak sikit dari tahun lepas...
alhamdulillah, dapat pergi pada malam pertama. seorang. di masjid setiawangsa. tenang. sayu. sayu.

lepas selesai tarawikh, pergi ke office. ya, office. minggu ni, kena siapkan proposal yang akan dibawa ke meeting pada jumaat pagi.

malam malam seterusnya hanya berbuka di office dan stay back untuk siapkan kerja. inilah pengorbanan.
untuk membuat imbangan antara dunia dan akhirat.

pengorbanan.

sekarang ni pandangan mata masih berbintang bintang kerana aku masih tidak cukup tidur dan rehat.
somaga hujung minggu aku di bulan ramadhan ini lebih berkat. amin.

1010 TWEET!

KEJADIAN

hye semua! :D

dengan nada terlebih gula mungkin.

kejadian malam semalam sangat comel mencuit hati hingga sekarang.

ayin : you? i nak pandang you macam ni je boleh?

you : ha? nape you nak pandang i?

ayin : ngeee heee heee

you : heee heee kalau tu, i pun nak pandang you je la :) *wink wink* macam ni....boleh?

(sambil tangan pegang stereng, tapi tak pandang depan)

omg omg omg

*fainted*

asal 'you' comel sangat ni?

nanti i cair lebih lebih lak. hee hee hee

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