thelongLOSTmemories

a sudden urge.
force me to search you virtually.
im not missing you or anything, or im in denial.
its the sudden urge. blame on that.
i read your thoughts, byte by byte.
and it reminds me, the first very moment why did i do that in the first place.


and now i should be thankful or what?
be thankful that im no longer involve?
or be thankful, that youre once a memory?


memories, full of bitterness, its an excuse people called experience and bla bla bla.
and ya, now i know, im thankful for what ive done.


reading through a message send to me via fb, to iron things out,
i dont appreciate people who judge and assume.
i share with people whom i care enough to love.


"terima kasih atas persahabatan yg terjalin semasa di kmj dan akhirnya putus mcm tu sahaja ats sebab yg aku pun x tahu. dan tiba-tiba aku dgr kau merajuk dgn aku dan entah kenapa? dan aku pun xmahu tahu kenapa. yg aku tahu, aku juga terasa atas kekasaran kau. tapi malas nak fikir. sbb aku tahu kau mmg mcm tu. tapi x mengapa, terima kasih banyak-banyak. dan selamat berpuasa"


for what i know,
now im blessed. Thank You.

2011 to go!

one two...get set go!

I've always bubbling to my office mate that my biggest dream for 2011 is to bake a very good and yummy cupcakes of my own, ya, no kidding!

thats it. the only resolution of 2011. cool eh?

i have bigger dreams.

i want to be a professional architect.

as soon as i am ready with the minimum two years experience.

everyday, working hard (perah otak) to do my task. it has been a wonderful journey as to date.

everyday i had to face new challenges. face new task. new people. new environment.

everyday i grew up! yes, people. dont stop growing up and be matured.

a reminder to meself also.

to come along with my career is surely, to have my own family.

*let me keep the details of this dream to myself, and with me love*

then suddenly, Im not realizing the plan that HE already had for me, alhamdulillah.

sometimes i forget to count the blessings.

never ever forget to count your blessing people.

HE always know whats best for us.

*hey! am watching junior masterchef as am writing this!*

here it goes. my coming journey.

already full until august people!

its all already planned. i am so thank full of all this blessings.

the plans also includes my beloved ones.

everyone will change their status in their life.

wishing all their best.

as i am also moving on.

great things happening in 2011.

i dont need all list of resolution, as it comes to me like everyday!

*suddenly, a name pop-up in my mind, nama yang comel untuk baby girl*

hahahaha berangan tahap apa ni?

seriously, ada dua nama pop-up! and i merge the name with his name.

heheheh. gila berangan. serious cute.

siap cari meaning okay.

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ouh okkay...berangan tbc!

THE architect LIFE

done updating me life.

the architect life, so here we go.

after one, another one coming, that is proposal.

when im assigned to do proposal with the team, 

there will always time that we had to eat so much to gain energy *alasan*, and 

also the staying up late sampai moody.

but in the end, when the proposal is done, 

feeling superb like baru lepas buat bungee jumping, get it?

the on-going project, monitoring project *management*,

this one needs communication skills, dealing skills and 

also skill betulkan-drawing-macam-submission-was-semalam.

other else than that is kejar-kejar consultant, then tunggu kena kejar balik.

;P x nervous pun. *mode berlagak ni* haha

i had fun working. i want to be a professional architect as soon as i may sit for the exam.

wish me luck and luck people.

while im enjoying my journey here.

and how bout you?

did you all enjoy your working journey?

i wish you all, ALL THE BEST!

i-run-to-you

dedicated to mr. hafiz asu.

i run to you baby!

I run from hate, I run from prejudice

I run from pessimists, but I run too late

I run my life or is it running me, run from my past

I run too fast or too slow it seems

When lies become the truth

That's when I run to you

This world keeps spinning faster

Into a new disaster so I run to you, I run to you baby

When it all starts coming undone

Baby, you're the only one I run to, I run to you

We run on fumes, your life and mine

Like the sands of time slippin' right on through

And our love's the only truth

That's why I run to you

This world keeps spinning faster

Into a new disaster so I run to you, I run to you baby

When it all starts coming undone

Baby, you're the only one I run to, I run to you

Whoa, oh, I run to you

This world keeps spinning faster

Into a new disaster so I run to you, I run to you baby

When it all starts coming undone

Baby, you're the only one I run to, I run to you, I run to you, yeah

I always run to you

Run to you, run to you

dear love, first of all, thank you for all your time spend, thank you for all your dedication towards me and our relationship and our family. thank you ALLAH for all His blessings.

we had so much fun catching up with each other hectic life as an engineer+contractor+architect. *path that we choose and love*. its like meant to be. catching up memories, when i was not looking at you at school, when i was not replying any of your yearly calls, its a like miracle like now, we cant have each other apart like there is no tomorrow. 

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let me continue this so called love letter soon... ;P

random-more-events

more randoms things to share here.

have been so occupied, with life and love.

alhamdulillah.

the perfect birthday give from loved ones.

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heyya, ive been drafting this post since forever, like always.

one minute, i feel like updating then *poof* moody-tutup-laptop.

macam tu je my emotions can go up and down.

btw, this post supposedly meant to share my birthday month happiness.

sepanjang bulan dec, claimed to the bf that, it is mine, so whatever i do or want may be granted *demand-la-pulak*, tapi xde la sampai tahap mengada sangat ke ape. saje je nak namakan bulan tu, bulan kita, macam the bf demand bulan october bulan die :P

this year i celebrate my 24th birthday with  a lot of gift from the loved ones. really appreciated it you all,

along

mama

dina

hani

yaya

pakcu

aunty aishah

nenek

dihar (pending lagi ni ;P)

last but not least, hafiz sayang :)

these lovely people really made my day.

thank you all for all your love and support.

*eventho i think, only ili reads my blog*

hehehehe

syukur sangat. alhamdulillah.